By WahitoTravels
There is not a single day that goes without reflecting about the end of life. My life. The day I will leave this body. Creepier as it may sound, nothing silences my mind than this life fact that we unconsciously decided to put it in all manner of cultural and religious beliefs and taboos. This is because an intentional deep reflection of the end of our life as humans, awakens a reality of an unfathomable sense of gratitude and joy within us.
Life is a free beautiful gift to our souls that allows us experience what it is to be human, on this planet called earth, or should I say some rock floating in space?
I woke up to this life’s perspective after surviving a bad road accident back in October 2021 because my stressed mind couldn’t concentrate on the windscreen. I had completely switched off and was just following my scary wild thoughts as a result of my broken marriage.
I cannot explain how much suffering I experienced, all from the negative, bitter and scary thoughts that played in my head about the situation I was in. This was the first time my illusion of reality was completely distorted and was at the time, facing such a huge uncertainty, that was made worse by external gossips, naive self and external judgements and an imagined horrible future.
In a world ran by our minds, surviving remains our nature and we rarely come close to thriving. Many of us have forgotten how to tune into our intuition. Some will die never having understood the wealth of creativity within them. Even among the most successful, fear of the unknown and how best we can control it, remains the driver of our everyday pursuits, that no matter how good we are, we are always on a panic mode. A life of avoiding what we hate and pursuing what we think we need to ‘finally’ be happy. But sadly, life runs its course, both the good and the bad, just like day and night.
Self-awareness and intentional personal growth have made me focus on the art of letting go Chronic Worry as a daily practice. And this is what I am learning from this journey that only requires self-compassion, patience and surrender.
- Most of the things we worry about never happen.
This was just a cliché for a long time until I started to intentionally release random worries about things that are not within my control. Like doing my best to let go of what others think of me and obsession towards preferred outcomes whose time has not arrived. This is a wonderful but very difficult habit to pick up and live by it, as we are so attached to our imagined self and very strong identity. Most of us, our idea of self-worth is attached to things, titles, validation and achievements as per societal standards.
- Choice is an illusion when we are on autopilot.
Very few of us know what we want leave alone what we are doing. We tend to live through the lenses of our conditioned mind and experiencing life from that state most of which is dependent on the outside world. A deep belief that our happiness and unhappiness is based on the outside world, and we have zero power to choose. Worse still that it is in some future. This is why we live so disconnected from our true self, the mysterious and unique life that leaves the body when we die. Can you even quantity the how worthy life is?
- It’s all about changing inner conversations
Nothing is so scary than the human mind. And what we have perfected unconsciously is how best we can ran away from the noise in the mind. This is because as much as pain in life is inevitable, suffering is mostly caused by the negative narrations in our minds and the panic to control the imagined negative outcomes. However, I am personally learning that there is power in knowing that, no matter how much tough it is to control negative thoughts, we have the power to choose, welcome and entertain positive thoughts.
- Learning to detach from things, expectations and outcomes.
This can and is a scary place to be because of the constant and uncontrollable belief that surrender or letting go means doing nothing or taking no action about a situation. Or the belief that we are in control of the outcome so that when things go differently from our expectations, hell break loose, and we fall into self judgement and beating. For me, surrender means living in the present moment, which is all we have, full ACCEPTANCE of what is, NOW, taking action and doing our best towards a solution and being patient that all will be well. All these, while in state of surrender. Herein lies the peace of God.
- A deep knowing that there is a higher power in control and always taking care of me
Do you ever sleep worrying how you heart will beat tomorrow, or how you will pee or poop after a good meal? Have you ever wondered how a child forms from nothing in its mother’s womb before humans take over after birth? Are you even in control of your breathing? When we take off our cultural and religious conditioned beliefs, we wake up to a KNOWING that we have ZERO control of our life. A knowing that a higher power, God, is in control and all that we need is a complete TRUST.
They say the opposite of control is trust; that all things will work no matter the current situation. This is a beautiful place to rest and to realise that we indeed know nothing and own nothing, not even a single breathe.
